A Simple Kind of Life

While reading my mails and ordering something from V. Secret, this song played on the radio just a couple of seconds ago. It's one of my favorite No Doubt songs so here goes:

For a long time I was in love
Not only in love, I was obsessed
With a friendship that no one else could touch
It didn't work out,
I'm covered in shells

And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
And all I needed was a simple man
So I could be a wife

I'm so ashamed,
I've been so mean
I don't know how it got to this point
I always was the one with all the love
You came along, I'm hunting you down
Like a sick domestic abuser looking for a fight

And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

If we met tomorrow for the very first time
Would it start all over again?
Would I try to make you mine?

I always thought I'd be a mom
Sometimes I wish for a mistake
The longer that I wait the more selfish that I get
You seem like you'd be a good dad
Now all those simple things are simply too complicated for my life
How'd I get so faithful to my freedom?
A selfish kind of life
When all I ever wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

Sea, Sand, and Sushi

I had an almost perfect day. Woke up late, had brunch with mommy and surfed the shows on t.v. while munching a chocolate bar after. Around 4 p.m. I dragged my sister off the bed to the beach! The road was really busy, yeah may traffic din dito hehehe, we had to take an alternative route to La Jolla Shores. When I smelled the salty sea breeze I got so excited it's amazing I didn't run straight to the water! The seashore isn't as beautiful as the ones we have in Romblon or at other beaches in the Phil but it doesn't matter, I missed swimming in the sea so much! The sun is gray mixed with mud. There were lots of people too playing in the water and just soaking under the sun. We just dropped our bags and then went to the water. I wish I had a surfing board with me (as if naman marunong haha!) coz the waves were quite strong. My sister and I had so much fun in the water and in the sand even if we barely stayed for an hour. Natatakot kasing mangitim ang lukaret kaya nagyaya kaagad. Ok lang, babalik uli kami next week!

We went to the shops near the beach and checked out their stuffs. After that we went to the Japanese Restaurant across the street. We were soaked but who cares; we sat in front of the sushi cheffs coz they were calling us ( cute yung isang cheff) and I was also hoping that I could watch them do their thing. The chairs were too low, their table was high, and I'm petite, in other words I didn't see a thing. Anyways, since it's a Jap Resto we assumed they were Japanese. My sister spoke to them in Japanese but to our surprise the guy didn't understand her. It turned out they're Koreans...hehehe. We talked to the cheffs while eating. The food was really, really good. One of the cheffs told us that he'll make us sushi next time so we promised that we're coming back. Bummer I was beginning to shiver so we had to rush off. Before getting inside the car I took off my skirt coz I didn't want to get the seat wet so I drove home in my bikini ( =

Almost perfect.

I think I'm beginning to develop a crush on Mr.Superfly guy. Whenever we talk, I just keep on staring at his eyes and his long lashes. I don't like his perfume but it's not bad either.

You want to know something weird? I'm afraid of cops. Whenever I'm driving and I see a police car I get so anxious that I end up committing mistakes sometimes! Grrr! Just like last Saturday night, my sister asked me if we could drop by this Korean store where they sell original Dior & LV bags for very, very low prices. I told her it's dark in that area and I really don't know the place that well we might get lost. Eventually I gave in so at 10 p.m. we were driving along the dark road of Convoy St. while my sister was giving directions how to get there. My sister has a terrible sense of direction I'm telling you. She was confusing me and to make matters worse the car dipped and bumped on pavement coz I didn't see the deep part of the road since it was dark. Darn. I was already mad coz we still couldn't find the store when I saw a police car to the right. The light turned red. At first I didn't catch his attention. When it was time to go I drove ahead of him, not fast, but I kinda freaked out when I saw him behind me and then his lights signalled me. Uh-oh. What did I do wrong??? He went out of his car and approached me. He asked for my driver's license and then I said, "We're lost officer. Could you please help us find what we're looking for?" He said I was driving along the lane for left turns only. Hehehe stupid mistake. I told him I was looking to my left because we were looking for this Asian store and that I didn't notice I was in the wrong lane. My heart was beating so fast! Luckily the officer didn't give me a ticket and he even gave the CORRECT directions! At the parking lot I screamed at my sister. I know I'm bad but I was really furious and relieved at the same time. I stayed in the car while I waited for her and when she returned she didn't have the bag with her coz the store was already closed. When we got home I went straight to the bathroom and took a long, hot bath to cool me down. I felt so much better after.

I still don't like cops.

Ang ganda ng buwan kagabi.

***

Natutuwa ako tuwing may nakikita ako't nakakausap na Pinoy dito. Iba ang pakiramdam kung may nakikita akong kababayan, parang malapit na rin ako sa Pinas. Namimiss ko na talaga ang Pilipinas kahit saksakan ng init at gulo ngayon doon. Kung pwede lang umuwi ginawa ko na. Haay...

***

Ang dami kong cute na mga kliyente kanina. Yung pinaka huli kong client mukhang model at ang tamis ng ngiti kaya kahit pinahirapan niya ako ng kaunti eh keribelles na rin. Medyo magulo kasing kausap at pabagu-bago ang isip, gusto pa yata eh binobola at nginingitian ng husto...charot hehehe. Haay nakakaaliw minsan ang mga kliyente, may mga nakakasuya rin. Nagsasawa na ako sa mga pagmumukha nila. Wehehe.

Twin B Sent Me This:

1. I can see your point, but I still think you'refull of sh*t.
2. I don't know what your problem is, but I'll betit's hard to pronounce.
3. How about never? Is never good for you?
4. I see you've set aside this special time tohumiliate yourself in public.
5. I'm really easy to get along with once youpeople learn to see it my way.
6. I'll try being nicer if you'll try being smarter.
7. I'm out of my mind, but feel free to leave amessage
8. I don't work here. I'm a consultant.
9. It sounds like English, but I can't understanda word you're saying.
10. Ahhh...I see the screw-up fairy has visited usagain...
11. I like you. You remind me of myself when I wasyoung and stupid.
12. You are validating my inherent mistrust ofstrangers.
13. I have plenty of talent and vision; I justdon't give a damn.
14. I'm already visualizing the duct tape overyour mouth.
15. I will always cherish the initialmisconceptions I had about you.
16. Thank you. We're all refreshed and challengedby your unique point of view.
17. The fact that no one understands you doesn'tmean you're an artist.
18. Any connection between your reality and mineis purely coincidental.
19. What am I? Flypaper for freaks!?
20. I'm not being rude. You're just insignificant.
21. It's a thankless job, but I've got a lot ofKarma to burn off.
22. And your crybaby whiny-assed opinion would be...?
23. Do I look like a people person?
24. This isn't an office. It's hell withfluorescent lighting.
25. I started out with nothing & still have mostof it left.
26. Sarcasm is just one more service we offer.
27. If I throw a stick, will you leave?
28. Errors have been made. Others will be blamed.
29. Whatever kind of look you were going for, youmissed.
30. I'm trying to imagine you with a personality.
31. A cubicle is just a padded cell without a door.
32. Can I trade this job for what's behind door #1?
33. Too many freaks, not enough circuses.
34. Nice perfume. Must you marinate in it?
35. Chaos, panic, & disorder! My work here is done.
36. How do I set a laser printer to stun?
37. I thought I wanted a career; turns out I justwanted a salary.
38. Who lit the fuse on your tampon?
39. Oh I get it... like humor... but different

Kainis. Sobrang init kanina bago ako umalis ng bahay! Pakiramdam ko unti-unti akong natutunaw kaya naman ang suot ko eh flowing pink tube top at naka mini skirt pa ako. After two hours nang pagliliwaliw dito sa tabi-tabi, aba biglang nagdilim ang langit at medyo umaambon pa. Lumalamig na rin ang ihip ng hangin at mukhang mangangatog na ako sa lamig maya-maya. Buhay nga naman oo.

Halos isang linggo kong hindi nabasa ang mga e-mails ko at hindi rin ako nakapag blog. Lagi kasi akong pagod tsaka kung anik-anik naman ang pinaggagagawa namin ni Pye at Mommy pag free ako. Pansamantalang nagbalik sa dati ang relasyon naming tatlo. Masaya naman ako kasi nagagawa uli namin ang kulitan, tuksuhan, tsismisan, at marami pang iba na matagal naming hindi nagawa. I just wonder how long this will last.

***

So many things happened since last week. I was driving with my mom last Saturday at 9:30 p.m., we were going to pick up my sister when the car suddenly skidded to the right side and it was so hard to control the car. Thank God there were no cars behind me and there were no pedestrians too. I had to stop at somebody's driveway to check what was wrong. I drove back home slowly. Buti na lang hindi pa kami nakakalayo. Nang pinaayos ko, nyek ang brake pala ang problema. Wala na yung brake patch kaya pumapalya na. Jaske, it terrified me when I realized that I could have been in an accident and what tears me apart is that my mom was with me. I don't think I could forgive myself if I hurt anybody especially a family member. Thank you God.

***

I'll just post again, I forgot what I really wanted to say. Tumawag na kasi ang kapatid ko't nagpapasundo. Nagpapasama sa akin ang lukaret hindi ko alam kung saan. Kung wala ako sa work, driver naman ako. I'm not complaining ha...not yet. Haha.

Slept with a smile on my lips last night and feeling very, very thankful to God, my friends and Pye. When I woke up at 8:30 a.m. I even caught myself chuckling softly. I was laughing so much in my dream at a class project that has gone berserk. I was still smiling when I opened my eyes and realized it was just a dream. I haven't been like this for some time. I felt so light, happy, and still very thankful. Before snuggling between the sheets at 3 a.m. this morning (after scribbling a few things in my organizer which took me two hours to do), I texted three people to spread the good news. The shadow has passed and I'm walking on sunshine again. I don't know how it happened, I just snapped out of it. That's why I am very, very, very thankful to God who never fails me in anything; to my friends who walked me through the fire; and to my sister who backs me up at all times and loves even the crappy me ( =

I hope I'll always end and start a day this way.

I had my hair done today. I feel good.

I'm not at home right now. I'm just hanging out with Pye and fooling around with her here at Kinko's where I am also checking my Friendster account since I can't open that site at home. Darn pc. Anyways I got to go, I'm picking up my mom from work in thirty minutes. Besides, using the internet here is quite expensive. 20 cents a minute! Jeez.

Hmm I don't feel good. I feel great.

LSS 2

Here's another song that's played for a couple of times in a day at work. The words are just playing in my mind, might was well post it here ( =

Here's Where the Story Ends
by the Sundays

People I know, places I go, make me feel tongue-tied
I can see how people look down, they're on the inside
Here's where the story ends
People I see, weary of me showing my good side
I can see how people look down
I'm on the outside
Here's where the story ends
Ooh here's where the story ends

It's that little souvenir of a terrible year
Which makes my eyes feel sore
Oh I never should have said, the books that you read
Were all I loved you for
It's that little souvenir of a terrible year
Which makes me wonder why
And it's the memories of your shed that make me turn red
Surprise, surprise, surprise

Crazy I know, places I go
Make me feel so tired
I can see how people look down
I'm on the outside
Oh here's where the story ends
Ooh here's where the story ends

It's that little souvenir of a terrible year
Which makes my eyes feel sore
And who ever would've thought the books that you brought
Were all I loved you for
Oh the devil in me said, go down to the shed
I know where I belong
But the only thing I ever really wanted to say
Was wrong, was wrong, was wrong

It's that little souvenir of a colourful year
Which makes me smile inside
So I cynically, cynically say, the world is that way
Surprise, surprise, surprise, surprise, surprise
Here's where the story ends
Ooh here's where the story ends

LSS

This song's video is played over and over again at work.

Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight.

Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear.
Though I've tried

Fallen
I have sunk so low
I am messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.

Fallen
I have sunk so low
I am messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

pinaglalaruan yata ako ng tadhana...( =

Some of my friends are probably waiting to see pictures of me bulging at all the wrong places. Sorry to disappoint you guys but it's the opposite. I'm losing weigth so fast that I'm a little bit scared myself coz it isn't healthy and I might get myself sick. For your information I am not doing this on purpose. Ever since I started working my eating habits became worse. I don't have breakfast and when I'm at work I can't eat lunch. I'm always in a rush every morning so I wont be late for my darn work which leaves me no time to eat breakfast. I usually have lunch late in the afternoon and by the time I'm free to grab a bite I already lost my appetite. Besides (the true reason), I hate eating all by myself. Any food when eaten alone isn't good for me. Mas pipiliin ko ang daing at kamatis basta may kasama akong kumain. Hinda ba mas masarap naman talagang ngumuya kapag may kakwentuhan at katawanan ka sa hapag kainan? Pag uwi ng bahay tsaka na lang ako kumakain kung saan minsan kakulitan ko pa ang kapatid ko na nang-aagaw ng ulam o si Reina na nagpapapansin sa ilalim ng lamesa; o di kaya'y kakwentuhan si Mommy o Daddy.

So what do I do during lunch? I go up at the top most deck and sit under the sun near the flowers. For an hour I would just stare at nothing and think, think, and think. Sometimes I call my sister and chat with her for a little while. It's also my time to text my friends who are in the Philippines. Tomorrow I might bring a notepad and pen with me so I could scribble some of my thoughts and probably draw a figure or two ( =

It seems to be a lovely evening. The moon looks beautiful. Ang tagal ko ring hindi napagmasdan ang buwan. Maybe I would think of Luna tomorrow. Maybe not.

Sa Isang Kaibigan

Maraming salamat. Pagbalik ko, magtatawanan at magkukwentuhan muli tayo. Ihanda mo na ang adobo ( =

Farmers Insurance

At last, no more sneaking! I can officially drive. Wehehe. Yesterday I got my insurance that's why they are not that afraid anymore. Mga tayaw hehehe.

I met the only guy I haven't seen yet at work, his name is Al and he's like a grandfather to me. I am the youngest in the group, baby? Just kidding.

"You may laugh out loud in the future at something you're eating your heart out over today. We are all faced with a series of great opportunities brilliantly disguised as impossible situations."
-Charles R. Swindoll

I don't know who the guy is but I so, so agree with him.

You may not want to tell me what I need to know and you may be causing me pain right now but it'll soon be over. This will only make me stronger and wiser.

Someday my friends and I might talk about this experience over a cup of coffee or a glass of coke and Mcdo fries. I can already imagine the loud laughter we'll create. Can't wait.

Time of Your Life

I was talking with a friend a couple of hours ago when this video played. I like this song and if I'm not mistaken my friend Ann loves this too.

*Greenday - Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)*

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
***

I will have the time of my life. Live life to the fullest ( =

Was "us" even real? I am so confused.

51% Sweetheart 49% Bitch

I'm 51% Sweetheart 49% Bitch
Don't Push It.

I've read this last Sunday at the back of an old woman's pink shirt. Made me smile.

I hurt the people I love and I still love people who hurt me. I guess that's just the way it goes crazy it might seem. I never intended to hurt them but sometimes it's just inevitable. Although there are times I could have prevented it but chose not to because I'm stubborn and moody. Haay I guess my mom's right. Sabi niya masyado daw akong malambing pero pag tinotopak...tsk tsk tsk. I'm 51% Sweetheart 49% Bitch so don't push it.
***

I had a rough day. I took the bus at 11:55 a.m. to get to my 1 p.m. appointment. We weren't that far from my place yet when another passenger informed the bus driver that there was a leak and that water was gushing somewhere. The bus stopped and the driver called for back up. After ten minutes I couldn't wait any longer so I asked him if there's another bus coming. He said after fifteen to twenty minutes so I took off and walked at the side of the road. Darn was it scary! Cars were so fast and I was scared that someone might grab me (paranoid hehe) or throw a stone at me. Just so you know, a woman died a month ago while she and her husband were driving in the freeway. She was on the passenger's seat and her husband was driving when somebody threw a stone at them and hit the woman. There are other vehicular accidents here caused by maniacs and that's all I could think of while I was walking (more like running) back home to get the car. I called my mom so I would feel better while watching out for the coming vehicles. Talking to my mom did make me feel stronger. I told her to get me water and to meet me at the parking lot so I wouldn't have to go inside and leave asap.

I took the car again (yeah, dinekwat ko dati ang kotse nang nanood kami ng sine ni Pye gabi na kasi tsaka katamad maglakad) but this time my mom and sister were with me. I'm not supposed to drive on the freeway because I don't have a car insurance yet and my dad & aunties are afraid of what might happen if I get into an accident (and of course the bills!). So just in case they'll find out, they wont go crazy on me as much as if I went out alone. Sama nandamay pa ano? Hindi naman. Pampalakas lang ng loob si mommy and Pipoy ( = We arrived at 12:50 and I was glad no cops were trailing behind me. My sister said I was driving so fast she couldn't retouch her make-up. I didn't endanger their lives coz I do drive safely and defensively; I would rather go down alone than harm anybody.

Hindi naman ako na late sa appointment ko pero during the meeting my stomach was growling kahiya hehehe I forgot to eat again. I don't know if the guy beside me heard it...sana hindi hehehe wa poise! Enough adrenaline rush for the day.

4th of July

Toy and Pye picked me up after work around 6:30 p.m. and we went straight to La Jolla Cove. The place was packed! Lots of people pitched their tents; others sat on the picnic tables; while some brought their own portable chairs and blankets. We brought a banig and blanket para madali lang bitbitin hehehe. Barbecue grills everywhere, kids running around, girls in their bikinis and boys in board shorts, the weather was perfect, and the ocean was just beautiful. There were flags everywhere and families having picnic together.

My father was already in the area to save a spot for us beneath a couple of short trees. I ate so much because I haven't eaten anything . I'm gonna get myself sick...anyways, we took a short walk by the beach and then around 8:45 p.m. we went back to our spot to watch the fireworks display at 9 p.m.

The fireworks display started at exactly 9:00. It was so quiet and everybody was just looking up at the sky. It was really, really beautiful. It was like the stars were exploding above us. The sky was filled with the colors of red, blue, orange, yellow, green, purple, and pink. The fireworks formed various shapes like hearts, sperm cells (believe me dear), fireflies, and circles. It was all breath taking. All we could say was: wow, Ooh, and whoa. Everybody clapped and cheered after the last fireworks went off and then just left. We parked twenty minutes away from La Jolla Cove so we had to walk--it was more like a hike because it's a steep hill--to the car. It's like a fiesta because the streets were filled with people headed towards different directions. The show was really wonderful but while watching I can't help thinking about the pollution it caused. It's a give and take.

(Wala naman talaga akong pakialam sa Independence Day ng mga Kano pero gusto kong makisaya lang, pampatanggal ng stress sa katawan. Plus I wanted to watch the fireworks.)

***
I'm really sleepy and tired now. I woke very early, kainis talaga. I met two other guys at work they are ok there's just one left that I haven't seen yet. I don't know if I really like my job...waah ano ba yan. I guess I'll just have to think of the money. Ewan.

Oh, I should have taken Spanish in College. Napagkakamalan kasi akong Spanish dito ng ibang clients. Nagugulat na lang ako biglang hindi ko naiintindihan ang pinagsasabi nila surprise surprise. Of course I always correct them and say I'm a Filipino. Proud Pinay wehehe.

Hmm I'll try to learn to speak Spanish.

***
I miss a lot of people right now. I miss my home.

Antok lang siguro toh. See you people in my dreams. Muah!

Work It

Tired, tired, and tired. But I'm happy.

During college I was wondering how I'll earn money with my course, Speech Communication. Today, I realized my years in UP were not wasted. At long last there are no more questions in my mind. I'm quite happy, happy, happy.

By the way, I met a few people at work today and one of the guys in the team is Josef. He kinda reminds me of a friend back in UP. Hehehe. So far, people at work are ok. Josef guided me and he was a great help to me this afternoon.

***

I had fun at Poway yesterday but I guess it's Reina who enjoyed the run and the hike the most. My cousin brought his friend with us and her mom also came along. It was already dark when we headed back home. I just enjoyed the ride and kept quiet in my seat. Till the next hike.

Success!

I did my first laundry ever. I'm not talking about underwear or hankies, ok? I'm talking about real clothes. Madali lang pala...wehehe. I washed two black slacks and one black and white stripes top. Of course I used the washing machine.

It's also nice if nobody takes care of me all the time. I learn new things on my own like doing laundry ( = At least now they don't treat me like a baby anymore. I lose and gain something at the same time. Haay, buhay-buhay.

I'm pulling through. Thank you God.

(this is a big deal, just be happy with me)

Gonna go hiking in Poway again later at three p.m. w/ my cousin, Pipoy, and Reina. Then tom, I start work. I'll keep my fingers crossed and of course I'll dress for the kill d =